Monday, June 23, 2014


 I remember driving back home with you last February. It was chilli outside but I wanted to wear a dress to our date. I remember feeling so warm and cozy in the passenger seat, watching lights passing by in my half-closed, sleepy eyes, telling you everything in between nothing. Then my favorite song at the time came on and I told you I loved the song. You asked why and your question fell into silence. Then you started tapping your fingers to the beats and singing quietly. You already told me you never sing around other people. The yellow street lights slowed down and stopped on your smile. That's my favorite memory of us. I can close my eyes, think about those 2 minutes, and feel so happy and peaceful. I will forever be grateful for that.

Saturday, June 21, 2014

Sleepless nights

“I read once that the ancient Egyptians had fifty words for sand & the Eskimos had a hundred words for snow. I wish I had a thousand words for love, but all that comes to mind is the way you move against me while you sleep & there are no words for that.”

- Brian Andreas, Story People: Selected Stories & Drawings of Brian Andreas 

Monday, June 16, 2014

I am still in love with you

It's fucking hard letting you go. It's as hard as accepting that control is an illusion, that fate somehow did not work on us. It hurts. It hurts everyday. I told you I deliberately chose to stay with you every morning of the past 1,096 days. I can't help but wonder: Can I one day tell myself to let you go?

Sunday, June 8, 2014

I'm happy you found better love than me

Love is finding someone that has a smile you adore and that you can have an enjoyable and meaningful conversation with. Love is not being able to forget her crooked nose and the crinkles in her mouth. Love is learning how to love her when she is sick, bitchy, grumpy, at her worst, and at her best. Love is learning how to accept the imperfections of her personality, the brokenness in her heart, and the totalness of her soul. Love is putting labor into making things that are, at first sight,unaligned work. Love is tolerance, acceptance, forgiveness, putting each other first, holding on and letting go at the right moment, gratitude, and generosity.

People complain that finding true love is difficult in this crazy world. Truth is, people cannot get over their egos and selfishness. It's not hard to find love; it's hard learning how to love one right.