Thursday, June 18, 2015
I am too young to feel this way
I want to be patient with myself. I want to tell myself that it's OK to feel the way I feel, that it's OK to be the person I am.
I want to be OK.
But I knew it was not normal to cry in my closet every other day. It was not normal to collapse into my bed at the end of every day exhausted. Wanting more. Unhappy. Questioning fairness and if I deserve what I have.
I question my decision to fall in love over and over again. I am too young to say "after all I have been through". Yet after all I have been through, is it bravery or stupidity that I have?